Well, I just got the date.

There will be 2 procedures done, back to back. I'm not happy. At least my request was granted. My nightmare, which I think God allowed me to have in order to brace me for what was going to happen to me in the future, was that I was going to be put to sleep via gas. I woke up from that dream quickly. The last thing I remember was taking the mask off and saying no, then being abrubtly woken up out of my sleep, out of that dream. In my dream, I may have even asked if there was any other way. I asked the woman who called me from the doctor's office today how they will put me to sleep. I indeed found out it would be through gas. I explained that I am more afraid of the gas than the i.v. I was told by her that she would speak to the doctor. She called me back, while I was in class, to let me know that the doctor said, "not to worry...". I quickly thought of what was coming next, that she would finish that sentence off with '..., he said the gas will be fine.' However, I got a much better answer. Her exact words were, "The doctor said not to worry, he will give you the iv." I was happy about that... to a degree. This makes me think of the words of our beloved Lord and Savior, 'God, if you can take this cup.' God, in Jesus name I pray, if you can take this cup from me, let it so be. I have an idea. Please grant me a miracle so that I don't have to be put to sleep. I know getting checked out with the cameras everywhere in my abdomen and beyond, God, will be good for me. I am in great pain and experiencing horrible things physically. It feels like there is fire and brimstone in my abdomen. But, God, you could first grant me complete healing, and then, rig it where, for some reason, the doctor has to reschedule the procedures with me, and that he is very apologetic. God, you know me. And you know my greatest fear is to be put to sleep once again, given what happened to me before. Dear God, please make it so that he must reschedule with me, but not due to any emergency on behalf of anyone else. That would not be good. Please keep all evil away from me. And as a lady told me yesterday, I should know if my doctor is a Christian, and try and only be seen by Christian doctors. That is good advice, very good. Thank you Lord, that my father will be there for me at the hospital. Thank you for your healing, for I decree a thing. Thank you for your mercy. Also, thank you for all of our wonderful learning experiences, here on earth, though some may be painful. I know that I know that I know that you will never give anyone anything more than they can handle. I keep on telling people that, every so often. I often thought that I would never have to be put to sleep again, in my lifetime. You are my Lord, and I know all answers come from you, sometimes through other people. Dear God, in Jesus' name I pray all of these things. I will not ask you to hear my prayer, for I know that you are so merciful, that you will hear all prayers. Thank you. And, I am grateful that the kind lady I spoke with on the phone yesterday, said she'll be praying for me, and my procedure(s). I feel some bit of confidence in my specialized doctor. Perhaps he can give me the special blood test that the nice lady suggessted I have, yesterday, as well. Oh God, only you know what is the case, and what should be done, what is best for me. Be with me God. I draw near to you spiritually. But not physically!... Yet. Haha You know God, I want to live a good long time, so that I can help others. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen. -SDRoads ... P.S. God, you know the date next month, in April, when this is suppossed to happen. Please, let's work together to grant my request, and meet that deadline. I believe in you. I believe in Jesus, as Savior, I believe in the Holy Ghost. I am so tired of working so hard in life while in complete pain with some distress. Amen and Amen